MY INTERESTS ABOVE ARE WHAT I LIKE TO SEE IN PORN VIDEOS. AS FOR IN MY PERSONAL LIFE, PERHAPS YES AND PERHAPS NO.

*****(June 26, 2017) Shortly, I'm going to what is said-to-be a “nudist lesbian commune” in the Romanian countryside so I'll be gone from this site for a week or so...but I'll be back*****

I'm a maze of contradictions. Please don't ask me to explain it because I can't. Right now, I just accept it. I don't mean to offend men by what I write here. It's just who I am.

In my “real life”, I'm only attracted to women. But the weird thing is that I get really exciting watching videos of men having sex with woman and I imagine that I'm the woman in the video who is being cocked by the man.

Also, I think the male penis is, well, kind of ugly. But I'm really intrigued by watching guys jack off and ejaculate. Sometimes I spend hours watching videos of that. I really don't want to see the man's face – just his cock. It's wrong to say, but he's nothing more than a cock to me...a crude sex object.

I don't like it when men disrespect women. I won't tolerate it in my personal relationships with men. But the porn that gets me the most wet is the porn where men are degrading and using women.

I've only had sex with 3 men. Quite honestly, I haven't enjoyed it all that much. My sex with women has been much more pleasurable and satisfying.

I have sex with other women pretty regularly - maybe once a week. I hope one day to find more satisfaction with men. I'm not really looking for a permanent relationship with anybody. I'm quite content that I can always masturbate myself to an orgasm.

I'm the daughter of a couple of “hippie types” and that has kind of rubbed off on me. I love being out in nature, living a healthy life and looking at things in kind of an independent way. My favorite way to spend a weekend is bathing topless at a nearby nude beach with a girlfriend or two.

I may come across as kind of a bitch. But I'm really not that way once you get to know me. Sex is beautiful and awesome. Let's enjoy!

SOME MORE ABOUT ME (NOT THAT YOU ASKED) ----

HAVE I EVER DONE ANAL SEX?

That's a big NO. The closest I've come was with a girlfriend when we had strap-on sex. But the dildo she put inside my ass was a really short and thin dildo.

DO I WANT TO HAVE ANAL SEX WITH A MAN?

I would like that some day but only if it's not going to hurt – but I know that it will.

WHAT FORMS MY OPINIONS ABOUT THE SEXUAL NATURE OF MEN?

If I had to name one thing then it would be my first “job” out of high school. I went up to San Francisco and worked in a “Gentlemen's Club” on Market Street. The minute that I took my clothes off the men turned into wild animals. And they weren't just that way with me. It was with all the girls. I freaked out and quit after 2 weeks. It was too much to process for me back then.

But it wasn't all bad. Every single day during the lunch hour this one guy would go back stage with me for a private show. We were separated by a glass window. I got naked and spread out on a bed in front of him and he stood up and took off his pants and jerked off. Since he was on the clock he was all business. It never took him longer than 5 minutes to splash his sperm all over the window and then he pulled up his pants and left. It's the first time I ever saw a man masturbate to ejaculation. BTW, if you're out there, Mark, then I'd do that every day with you for free or maybe I'll pay you.

WHAT DO I LOVE ABOUT WOMEN?

I love everything about women except the occasional cat fight. I love women's bodies, women's personalities and spirituality. Really, if women ran the world, then it would be a much more peaceful place. I adore breasts. It doesn't matter if a woman is flat-chested or has really big titties – just so long as they are natural. I also love a trimmed bush. I'm so envious of brunettes because their dark bushes are the most sexy ones. I'm blonde and even when I grow one it is hard to see so I mostly go bald down there. At least that's the way I am now.

My favorite sex with my girlfriends is 69ing, tribbing, pee play and strap-on fucking. Most of my girlfriends are married or have steady boyfriends but a couple of them are full lesbians.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I HAD COCK INSIDE OF ME?

That would be in late 2014.

DO I LIKE MEN?

I do. Just in a different way. I don't know if I'm lesbian or bi. I hate labels. I'm not one of those angry lesbians or anything. But the only real sexual need I feel for a man right now is for him to make me a baby. But even with that, I don't want to be a Mom for at least a few more years.

But I do hang out with men. I like guys who are intellegent, funny and who think with the head (that is on their shoulders). I like guys who are into outdoor adventures like long-distance backpacking and surfing big waves. I like men who are into yoga and who aren't druggies or drink too much. Marijuana is quite okay, but the guy can't be the 4:20 stoner type.

I'm sexually free with a few of my boy friends. I love to get naked with them. I really don't mind if they jack off in front of me if they get the urge. It's all good and it usually turns into mutual masturbation, which is one of favorites things – with both guys and girls.

WHAT'S THE WEIRDEST SEXUAL THING I'VE DONE?

I'm not totally sure it was sexual. But it is probably a few years ago when I worked at a bar in Santa Cruz, California, mixing drinks. This really obnoxious older man came in. He was maybe somewhere in his 50s. He was being really offensive so when he ordered me to make him a drink I went into the backroom and spiked it with my pee. He kept drinking and drinking and every time I made him another drink I took a whiz into it to top it off. A couple of times this male bartender contributed his urine to the concoction. About 10 drinks later the man stumbled out of the bar, none the wiser.

WHAT IS THE BIGGEST SEXUAL MYSTERY TO ME?

That's easy. It's why so many men don't let other men suck their cocks. I haven't met a man yet who doesn't want his cock sucked. What difference does it make if the cocksucker is a woman or another man? Why don't guys just close their eyes and imagine it's a woman sucking them off. For you gay-phobio guys, sorry I had to end with that but it bugs me like crazy.

Monica